Wednesday, January 27, 2010


I am not motivated to blog. Sorry :(

Monday, January 25, 2010

Ohhhhhhhh Monday.

Hello Everyone!

I am so exhausted today. I was at my parents house for the big Vikings vs. Saints game last night, then I had to drive 2 hours back to Minneapolis. The game was so disappointing, but oh well. Now I am just dragging ass, lol. This exhaustion led to a very interesting morning. I woke up at 5:30 like usual to workout, but I didn't workout because I kinda feel funky today. I went through my normal routine and when I was all through I was freaking out because I was running a few minutes behind and I thought I was going to miss the bus. I looked at the clock and was only 6:15. I don't have to catch the bus until was I thinking? lol. Needless to say, I went back to sleep for another hour and was right on time for work! :)

This weekend was good. I did very well with my eating at my parent's house, which was great. Thanks for all of the well wishes, you guys are fantastic! :) Chocolate is my weakness, especially when it is in my mom's cookies. She makes the BEST chocolate chip cookies in the world, but I didn't go overboard...go me! :)

Jillian and I haven't met since Friday :) I was so sore this weekend that I decided to take some recovery time. I do plan on working out when I get off work today though. I am so impressed with the results I have gotten so far that I can't wait to keep doing it :)

How did everyone's weekend go? What were the highlights? The lowlights? Anyone have anything they need to vent about? I am here! Have a wonderful day my beauties. We are amazing!


Friday, January 22, 2010

Day 2 of Jillian

Hello Everyone!

Today was my weigh-in. Last week I was 236.4 and this morning I was.....232.2!!! A loss of: 4.2 lbs! Wooooooooooooooohooooooooooooo! :) I am happy as a clam! Jillian kicked my butt again this morning and my legs feel like they are on FIRE!

Thank you to those who posted vegetable ideas. They all sound ridiculously yummy and I can't wait to try them out.

I am a little nervous about this weekend. I have a doctors appointment down in Rochester so I decided to spend the weekend with my family. As I have said before, I do not have the best track record of eating at home. My dad and 3 brothers don't necessarily have to watch their "girlish" figures, so my mom always buys food that they like, which is usually Anyway, I am confident that I will do just fine, but just root for me this weekend, ok? Thanks! I am very excited to go home though because I get to spend time with my nephew!! He will be 14 months old on February 3 and he is sooooooo adorable! Here is a picture of him when he was about 11 months old.

Man, I LOVE him! :) Anyway, time for me to hit the road for the weekend. Two things I want you to always remind yourselves:

1. You are beautiful
2. You are worth it.


Thursday, January 21, 2010

Day 2 of Jillian

Hello Everyone!

Wow am I sore. Jillian Michaels is a real ball I love it though. I feel really good and I can already sense that my body is changing. The worst part of the video is when we do static lunges with bicep curls. My legs are by far the least "in-shape" body part and these absolutely kill me. Oh, and who thought jumping jacks would be so damn difficult? lol. I am really excited for my weigh-in tomorrow! I hope I have lost SOMETHING. Even if I didn't, the important thing is that I am not giving up. Look at this woman, she is intense! Like I have said before, I wish I could have her kick my a$$ around the gym like she does with those Biggest Loser Contestants. I would be in top shape in no time!

I tried something different for lunch today. I LOVE pizza and I found these 200 calorie 1 serving pepperoni pizzas by DiGiorno....delicious! If you love pizza as much as I do but you don't want all of the fat and calories try these!

Eating has been going well lately. I went to the grocery store on monday and spent $120!!! I bought a fresh pineapple that isn't quite ripe yet, but I am so excited to cut it up and eat it. Does anyone have any vegetable suggestions? I really need to incorporate more veggies into my diet but I am not a fan of broccoli or carrots or celery. I need different ways to fix them. Any ideas are welcome. Well everyone I need to get back to work! Thanks for reading!

Inspirational quote for the day: "When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge" --
Tuli Kupferberg


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Day 1 of Jillian

Hello Everyone!

Sorry I have been MIA lately. I had monday off to celebrate the wonderful accomplishments of Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. Did I celebrate? Of course, by doing homework all day. I don't really have an excuse for yesterday so I won't try to make one up :) Anyway, HERE I AM!

I finally got "Jillian Michaels 30-day Shred" in the mail after a huge misunderstanding with the post office. I woke up at 5:30 a.m. and rocked it. It was ridiculous. I did level one and I was out of breath and sore. She kicked my ass, which is great because it is exactly what I need. I am really excited to see where this goes :)

This morning I ate the most delicious breakfast cookie. Here's the recipe:

1/3 cup Quaker Oats (not instant)
1 T Natural Peanut Butter
1/8 Cup of low-fat chocolate milk
1 T milk chocolate chips

Mix oats and PB together until you get a crumbly mixture. Add milk and chocolate chips and stir until well blended. Mash the mixture onto an appetizer size plate and refrigerate overnight. Enjoy (with a spoon)! You can substitute the chocolate chips for another mix-in or just add others! It is yummy deliciousness :)

No matter what you are doing today make sure you take time to look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are beautiful. No one can truly love you unless you love yourself first!


Friday, January 15, 2010

I'm a model, ya know what I mean?

Hello Readers!

How is everyone today? Sorry I failed to post yesterday. I had every intention but was just busy with work, homework etc. So, I weighed in today. Last week I was 236.3 and this week I weighed in at.....236.4. That's right, a gain of .1 lbs. Of course I am disappointed that I didn't lose, but I didn't workout this week either. I really need to get my motivation back to hit the gym but this shows that even when I have a bad week exercise wise that I can still maintain my weight within a pound. Holla!

Anyone have any plans this weekend? I was supposed to have some of my friends over to celebrate my birthday but I am rescheduling for a warmer date. I just want to dance. Do you ever get that urge to just hit the dance floor and shake your booty? I just might have to crank the stereo in my apartment and have my own dance party, lol.

Some of you might be wondering how I thought of the name Destination: Runway. I have always thought it would be awesome to be a model. Not necessarily a Victoria's Secret Model, or a Supermodel but to eventually walk the runway. When I was 18 I went to a model search, interviewed, gave them some headshots etc. The agency called back and told me they wanted to represent me and that they were sending my shots to companies looking for models. Well, I never heard anything which sucked but I asked my mom about it a while ago and she told me that a few people had called and wanted to book me but she told them I was in school and didn't have time. WTF? The point of this whole rant is that eventually I want to do a runway show. It doesn't even have to be a big show, I just want to strut my stuff down that runway. Do you think I can do it? I know I can! And I will :)

Anyway, I hope you all have a fantastic weekend. Remember that our success stories depend on choices that WE make. You all are beautiful. Whether you gained weight this week or lost, know that this journey is one day at a time. Take time for yourself and remember to tell yourself you are beautiful at least once today.

Much love xoxo

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Still Bitchy and Bloated

I am so hungry. I ate breakfast and had my morning snack but I am still hungry. Don't you hate that? Sometimes I feel like a bottomless pit, that I could eat and eat and eat and not get full. I wonder what triggers this? Maybe its the fact that my unwelcome visitor can't get the hint to leave. All I know is that I am really frustrated right now. I just started my MBA program which has brought stress back into my life and I am unmotivated when it comes to wanting to workout (poor me, right?) Sorry, sometimes its just nice to vent my frustrations because I know at least one person out there understands what I am going through.

Yesterday was an ok day. It was my friend Sarah's birthday so we had ice cream cake from DQ. It was delicious, but I have a feeling that the scale isn't going to tip in my favor this week. Oh well what do you do? You accept it, pick yourself up, dust off and hit it hard the next week I worked my late night at work and was ridiculously hungry after work so while reading my assignment for class I pretty much ate my weight in goldfish crackers...ok so maybe not but I did eat a lot of them. Like I said yesterday, it is all about choices. I could have chosen not to eat the cake and I could have chosen a better snack while studying but to tell you the truth, I didn't want anything else. Now I could have measured out a serving instead of bringing the box into my room but again I chose not to. I will have to deal with the consequences but I am ready to accept them. I hope you all have a fantastic magical, marvelous, joyful, wonderful day. You are beautiful!


Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Bitchy and Bloated

Hey everyone!

I got a very unwelcome visitor yesterday (yeah on my birthday!) so I am a bit crabby today. The first two days are ALWAYS the worst. I feel like crap and I want to eat EVERYTHING IN SIGHT. My chocolate craving is always at its peak. It just sucks all around. I do apologize for my attitude today and I thank you for bearing with me. Despite my birthday yesterday I had a good day of eating. I managed to get my fruits and vegetables in and I kept my calorie intake to around 2500. We went out for lunch and I enjoyed a yummy cheeseburger and fries and to my surprise I could only eat half of the burger! Guess who has leftovers for lunch?? Yep that's me ;)

If you sit back and think about it, the concept of weight loss is simple: less calories in + more calories out= pounds lost. Why is it SO HARD to get the right answer out of this simple equation? It may be hereditary, it may be environmentally induced but ultimately we become overweight because of the choices we make. So what are we going to do about it? Are we going to sit around feeling sorry for ourselves? No! We are going to get out there and be make better choices and work our asses off to be and look the best we can! The road is going to be tough. There will be tears shed and you may even want to quit, but we will keep going. We will power through the pain. Victory will be ours!

Whew, that was a bit intense. I hope you all have a wonderful day. Please know that although I don't know you personally, you have a special place in my heart. I am here for you if you ever need inspiration or a listening ear. Have a wonderful day and keep telling yourself that you are beautiful. You deserve this!


Monday, January 11, 2010

Birthday Bliss!

Good morning readers!

I hope you all had a fantastic weekend! I know I did! Today is my 25th birthday. When I was younger I always wondered if I would make it to 25 because it seemed like so far away; well here I am, lol. I am having a wonderful day so far. My best friend who just happens to be gave me a beautiful blue shirt from Maurices and the Hungry Girl Cookbook! Is she great or what? I am so excited to start using it, then I can pass on all of my delicious findings to you!

So, on Friday I mentioned that I would be going out to eat Saturday and that I was nervous about it. Well, we ended up going to "El Tequila" in Northfield and I had chips and salsa....and guacamole....and a chicken enchilada. I know I could have made better choices, but I didn't and that is something I have to live with/work on. Today I will be going out to eat again for my birthday, but I know I am having a cheeseburger and french fries! I haven't had a burger and fries for so long and I have been totally craving it. What better day to satisfy a major craving then on your birthday...right? LOL! Ok, I am totally making excuses but seriously, I'm excited!

I am so annoyed because I ordered "Jillian Michael's 30 day shred" more than a week ago and it still hasn't come! I decided that when it arrives I will take a 30 day break from my usual workout regimen to see if it actually works. She makes some big promises...namely that if you stick to the program for 30 days (while watching your caloric intake, of course) you could lose up to 20 lbs. Now, that is a lot of weight in a very short amount of time, so I am hoping to lose roughly 10 lbs. Don't worry, I plan on sharing the progress with all of you, and at the end I will let you know whether or not I recommend it. :) I suppose I have chatted enough for one day, I hope you all have an amazing day. Remember you are worth it.

Inspirational quote: "Never take life too seriously...nobody gets out alive anyway." --Anonymous :)

Much love my darlings!

Friday, January 8, 2010

It's Friday!

Good morning everyone!

TGIF! I am so excited for the weekend. I am going to watch my brother wrestle on Saturday and then I am heading to the casino for the night with some girlfriends. I am a little nervous because we will be going out to eat on Saturday night and it is difficult for me to make healthy choices when I eat out. I have always struggled with this and am fighting to break the habit. I will let you know how that goes :)

Last night I made a very tasty smoothie and I wanted to share the recipe with you. Take 1 cup of strawberries, 1 cup of ice and 1 cup of "V8 Splash Tropical Blend" juice and blend together on high until smooth. It was delicious and only roughly 140 calories! Once I even added celery to get some veggies in and I couldn't even taste it!

I decided that Friday is going to be my official weigh-in day. Since I haven't weighed in in front yet I will use this weight as my "starting point" for future weigh-ins. This morning I weighed in at 236.3 lbs; a nice surprise considering that right after Christmas I weighed in at around 244 (yikes, I know.)

I hope everyone has a fabulous day today. Remember that you are beautiful both inside and out and that you deserve every great thing that life has to offer.

If you ever get down just remember this: "Friends are there to lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

Much love!

Thursday, January 7, 2010


Good morning!

I hope everyone had a fabulous evening. I spent my night at the Gillette Children's Hospital in St. Paul, Minn. For more than a year now I have been a "play date" volunteer. Once a week I go in and do an activity with the kids from 6 to 8. Last night we had a dog show! Sometimes the pet therapy dogs come and do tricks. It was so much fun and it is always great seeing the kids' faces light up when they see the dogs. As for eating, yesterday was pretty good. I stayed within my alotted amount of calories BUT I threw away 260 of them on a grande mocha frappuccino with no whipped cream from Starbucks . I love them and I was craving one. I always satisfy cravings in moderation. I have found that if I let myself have it I don't crave it as often.

You will be so proud of me. I finally got my a$$ out of bed and went to the gym today. Holla! Even more exciting is the fact that I ran a mile in 10 minutes flat! Don't get me wrong, I felt like I was going to die afterward but it feels great having accomplished that. As I was doing my cardio I realized that my theme song is "Fighter" by Christina Aguilera. Obviously the song is about a guy but if you substitute "the guy" for something else that brought you down before and made you stronger it totally makes sense. That song is really empowering. Other great running songs are "Sandstorm" by Darude and "Fire Burning" by Sean Kingston. I don't know what it is about those two particular songs but they PUMP ME UP!

Here is a tip: Look in the mirror today and tell yourself you are beautiful.

Have a fantastic day! Much love my readers <3

P.S. For your viewing pleasure here is a picture of me way back in 2006. Yes, it is who you think it is :)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

This is me

Good morning! :)

I FINALLY worked out this morning! I didn't go to the gym though. Have you ever heard of "Hip Hop Abs?" That's right, I did it :) I bought it a while ago before I had access to a gym and I really liked it. It is a series of hip hop dance moves that give you both cardio and strength. Sometimes I wonder about Shaun T

I suppose I should tell you all how I got here in the first place, huh? I have struggled with weight my whole life. I was always the fat kid in school getting teased and laughed at. When I was 13 I decided to "change." I started working out more and eating better things/depriving myself of sweets and bad stuff and in the course of 6 months I lost almost 70 lbs. Needless to say, it didn't last forever. Throughout high school and college I literally blew up to almost 280 lbs. I was in total denial abot my weight, partly because friends and family would enable me by saying "you aren't fat," "you are just big boned" or "you are taller so you carry things differently."

Last year I decided to do this for real. I started watching what I eat but instead of depriving myself of things I practiced portion control. I joined the YMCA and took a Zumba class <-- SO FUN! -I totally recommend it- and now I am down to about 240 lbs. My goal is 180. I also ran my 1st 5k in August 2009 and am training for a 10k in April. Now you know a little more about me!

I promise my posts won't be always be this long. Thanks for the read! Much love to you and have a fabulous and inspiring day :) You are worth every minute.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

This is late..

Hey Everyone!

This is ridiculously late and for that I apologize. I started this program the other day called "42 day Habit Changer." Basically it is a bunch of different tips and tools you can use to help you change your eating/exercise habits for the better. I am only on day 4 and so far it has been pretty good. I am interested to see how things turn out. The program is $25 and you can find it at

Last night I made stuffed bell peppers for dinner. They are delicious and roughly 320 calories a piece! Here's the recipe:

1 lb ground turkey burger
1 cup white rice
1 can black beans
1/4 cup shredded cheese.

Mix the ingredients together, stuff roughly 6 bell peppers full and throw in the oven at 350 degrees for about an hour. When there is about 2 minutes left, throw some cheese on top. These are delicious and a great way to get your veggies in and it is a great source of fiber. I hope everyone has a marvelous evening! I am stuck at work until 8 p.m. Thanks for the read!

Monday, January 4, 2010


Good morning!

Man, is it cold outside or what? I am usually very good about getting up to workout before work, but lately I have been so unmotivated! :( I think its the weather. Anyway, I am excited for 2010 and all of the wonders it will bring.

Holiday eating is always difficult. On New Year's Eve some friends and I had dinner at the Cheesecake Factory. OMG it was freakin delicious. I had the grilled chicken avocado sandwich and a side salad-yummy. My friend Steph and I shared a piece of Adam's Peanut Butter Cup Fudge Ripple cheesecake- oh yeah it was as delicious as it sounds. Saturday night I ate at Ci Ci's pizza buffet in Plymouth MN, not as good as it sounds. The point is, I really need to get back on the band wagon. Today is another day! Always remember, life is a journey, not a destination.

p.s. Sorry if my first couple posts are a little dry, I am a first-time blogger! Thanks for the read!