Monday, February 22, 2010

When you just want to give up

Hey Everyone,

Lately I have been so fed up with everything. I haven't lost any weight since before Christmas. The good thing is that I haven't gained any either but still, when your goal is to be down to 180 lbs by the end of the year it is frustrating. I know exactly what I need to do: eat less burn more. I have decided to cut my calories down to 1500/day. Currently I am at around 1860 and obviously it isn't getting me anywhere. I am really nervous about it because I HATE feeling hungry and I am worried that I will feel hungry all the time. Anyone have any tips or suggestions as to how to combat this?

On a happier note, I have decided to kick the corporate world to the curb and pursue my passion! I recently started the MBA general program at Capella University and after the first class realized I didn't care about business. As many of you know, I volunteer at the Gillette Children's Hospital on Wednesday nights. Recently I realized that I want to be a Child Life Services Specialist. Capella University just happens to have an MS in Child and Adolescent Development that will fit perfectly with my dream. I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited to start my program in April! Yay.

Do you think it is possible to have a connection with someone you don't even really know? I feel very strongly for someone I have only met once in passing and I don't know what to do about it. Some peoople out there are probably rolling their eyes thinking that I am crazy but I am 25 and am very aware of my feelings. Anyone have any advice?

Have a wonderful day my beauties :)

xoxo
Sheena

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

It's Hump Day!

Hello!

Who's excited for the weekend? Well I am! I am really excited because Friday night I am hanging out with my friend Sarah and her hubby. We are going to watch the opening ceremonies! I am so excited because Justin Morneau is carrying the torch! I love him, but not as much as I love Joe Mauer. He is gorgeous, he has these beautiful blue eyes and a smile that sends shivers down your spine. And i'm done, lol. I was thinking earlier about what to talk about today and I just thought I would ramble on about some random stuff today. I know you are probably thinking "Sheena you ramble on about some random stuff everyday" but oh well!

I finally made it to the grocery store last night! I bought some yummy delicious food that I can't wait to eat. I hate running out of stuff at my apartment because then I go out to eat a lot more, and that is expensive! I was totally flabbergasted last night though because I bought 2 lbs of Turkey Burger at $6.99/lb!!! That is ridiculous. How are we going to tackle America's obesity epidemic when healthy alternatives are SO MUCH MORE expensive than "regular" food. It is no wonder that there is a link between obesity in the lower class. People have no choice but to buy crappy chemically enhanced food because it is all they can afford, especially when they have kids to feed!

I started my MBA program and it is intense. The classes are only 6 weeks long so it is information overload. I was up late last night completing an assignment, so I didn't get up to workout this morning. I'm not worried about it, though. It was a nice break. I am sure I will be back at it tomorrow :) Well beauties, I hope you all have fantastic days today. Remember that this is a journey and although it may be difficult at times, it will be worth it in the end. You are beautiful inside and out. Have a great day!

xoxo
Sheena

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Let it snow...NOT!

Hey Everyone!

I hope you are having a fabulous week. Things are alright here, I am just really tired. There is so much snow that it makes me want to hibernate. How sweet would it be to hibernate like a bear? I mean, you spend the entire winter SLEEPING! I think I might miss Christmas and New Years...and hot chocolate...and sledding...ok maybe it isn't such a good idea. My point is, I am sick of the snow and cold. I just want spring and summer already!

Things have been going well lately. I have been tracking what I've eaten and I have been doing the 30 day Shred. I LOVE IT! It is so so hard but man, I can SEE my body changing. My clothes fit better, my arms are more defined, yeah it is great. I'll admit, sometimes I want to reach through the tv and rip her hair out, but it is worth it.

Have a great day everyone, this is all I've got for now.
xoxo my beauties!

Sheena

Friday, February 5, 2010

Seriously? Seriously.

Good morning!

I think I injured my back...again. In June I threw it out so hard that I couldn't walk for days without excruciating pain. I did some physical therapy and thought I was good to go but apparently not. It is starting to hurt again. I am trying really really hard to keep it loose by doing some yoga stretches but I feel it getting tighter and tighter. I'll keep you updated on how this goes.

Yesterday was interesting...I ate kind of heavy. My friend Sarah brought this AMAZING dip into work with these yummy YUMMY cheese wheat thins, it was bad news bears. Later on, another co-worker came over to my cube area and offered my friend Kelly and I the rest of his french fries...yep ate those too. AND THEN we had an awards ceremony at work and there was a cookie bake-off!...yep tried a few of those. Woops! No one said this was going to be easy, right? lol. Anyway, needless to say, I was up on the scale today. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend! Do something fun and for yourself, it will make you feel amazing ;) Be bold my beauties!

xoxo
Sheena

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Level 2 rocks!

Hey Everyone!

So I volunteered at the children's hospital last night~ always a treat! It was dog show night again, where some of the pet therapy dogs come and do tricks! I am not sure who has more fun, the kids or myself :) I ate a roast beef sandwich from Arbys last night...and it was delicious. I did NOT, I repeat, did NOT order french fries though! I am so proud of myself. I did, however have a small (10 oz) Ja'Mocha shake. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM it was delicious!

I woke up so SORE this morning. Level 2 really kicked my butt yesterday. I did it again this morning though, and felt great afterward! I have to do the modified version of a few of the moves because you are practically in plank position the entire time! I have seriously seen some major changes in my body lately, and I love it. Things are actually starting to take form! You know what I absolutely hate though? Back fat! I wish fat wasn't allowed to deposit in that region. I mean, of course all body fat is unattractive, but back fat is the worst. Anyone else share my feelings? lol.

Well, I should get back to work. Have a wonderful day my beauties!

xoxo
Sheena

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Heyooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

Ha! Catchy title, right? ;) So, I woke up at 4:30 a.m. and I did Jillian: Level 2. Wow. It was tough, but I made it! I also went to the gym and ran for 20 minutes. I have gym membership at Snap Fitness and my health insurance is supposed to kick-in $20/month if I go 8 times/month. Well, I have been a member since late October and the damn discount still hasn't started. Apparently they are upping it to 12 times/month too. The point is, I have to start getting there more often.

If you have a minute, go give some love to my best friend Lindsay:another prior fat girl. She's going through a rough patch and could use as much encouragement as possible. I love her!

That's all for today! Have a wonderful day my beauties!

xoxo
Sheena

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Chocolate, Chocolate, Chocolate

Do you ever have days when all you crave is chocolate? Man, I am having one of those days, lol. There is this woman who sits by me at work and she ALWAYS has a basket full of candy in her cube! Today she has dove chocolates with caramel in the middle. Yeah, I know. I have to will myself to stay away from the ooey gooey goodness, but I have done pretty well, so far I've only had one :) I am also craving a grande no whip mocha frappuccino from Starbucks. Then again, when am I not craving one of those? If the weren't $4.40 a piece I would have one EVERYDAY! They are only 260 calories (with no whipped cream).

Has anyone ever seen the movie "My Life" with Michael Keaton? I watched it last night and seriously cried myself to sleep. Remember that "long, cleansing cry" I talked about yesterday? Well I got it! That movie is so sad, and it really helps you to realize how precious each minute of life is. I definitely recommend seeing it if you haven't already.

I got up and worked out with Jillian this morning and I think I am going to try level 2 tomorrow! I am a bit nervous, but I know i'll pull through. I am addicted to the feeling you get after you work out. Seriously though, I cannot wait to be outside again. I have a serious case of cabin fever. I think I am going to move to Florida. Sure, there is always the chance of a hurricane and historians are projecting that the sea is going to rise and wipe out coastlines all over the world...but at least I wouldn't have to worry about the damn freezing cold weather!

I hope you have a wonderful day, look in the mirror and tell yourself how beautiful you are. I do it everyday.

xoxo
Sheena

Monday, February 1, 2010

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My lovely readers~

My sincerest apologies. There really is no excuse for my absence accept that I have just been a schmuck lately. Sometimes in the winter I get like this. I just don't want to do anything because it is so f*ing cold outside. I become severely unmotivated and disconnected. Many people have told me that I live in the wrong state. This is probably true, but Minnesota spring, summer and fall totally make up for the crappy, cold, desolate, dead winter. Am I right? I can't wait for spring so I can run outside, go out to hh with my co-workers on a patio, go out clubbing on those hot summer nights, enjoy the lakes on my days of course TWINS BASEBALL! Did you hear? A preliminary agreement has been put in the works for a 10a -year contract extension for Joe Mauer! Man, I love that man ;) I could go on and on all day.

I just started running again. I figured that I should since I am still running a 10k in April. I have also been doing Jillian's 30-day shread. I am nervous to advance to level 2 because I still haven't mastered the push-up or the static lunge with bicep curl. Has anyone out there been to level 2? How is it? I weighed myself on Friday, and I went from 232.2 to 233.8, a gain of 1.6. I figured I would gain, since I had such a huge loss the week before, but no excuses, right? My goal is to be out of the 230's by this Friday. Wish me luck!

Well everyone, I am off to watch "My Life" with Michael Keaton. I hear it is a great movie and I could definitely use a nice, long, cleansing cry. I love them :)

I hope you all have a wonderful evening, and haven't completely abandoned my blog, but I don't blame you if you did. Heres to being better at staying in touch!

xoxo
Sheena